i feel that itch. it's getting worse and worse every time i go away. each time i come back from my american holidays, i get even more antsy to get this degree finished, this career online and fucking working.
i don't want to be here.

but this time it's different. i'm just... burnt out. i have nothing left to give. this semester may as well be my last, i don't want to do it anymore. i want to give it all up and just be. i want to work. i want to have money to do what i want, go where i want. i just have this insatiable wanderlust. i don't want to have real life. i want to live in the moment... do what i want, when i want. i don't want to be stuck in a classroom, wasting my youth.
the degree will always be there. i can start and stop it-- granted it's within 5 or 10 years or something. my youth is quickly fading.

fuck this delayed gratification. my generation is all about instantaneous gratification. i have no patience. i want it all now.

and i can't... ya know... wait to be american.

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college student of historical events, future educator. canadienne. i like to read, but i don't do it enough. i run. i like zombies. i'm obsessed with all things batman, except not batfleck. i'm a terrible video game player, but i'm getting better through attrition. i can play piano pretty good, though. the sound of city streets soothes me, but i love the silence of the forest. curious stargazer.

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i feel that itch. it's getting worse and worse every time i go away. each time i come back from my american holidays, i get even more antsy to get this degree finished, this career online and fucking working.
i don't want to be here.

but this time it's different. i'm just... burnt out. i have nothing left to give. this semester may as well be my last, i don't want to do it anymore. i want to give it all up and just be. i want to work. i want to have money to do what i want, go where i want. i just have this insatiable wanderlust. i don't want to have real life. i want to live in the moment... do what i want, when i want. i don't want to be stuck in a classroom, wasting my youth.
the degree will always be there. i can start and stop it-- granted it's within 5 or 10 years or something. my youth is quickly fading.

fuck this delayed gratification. my generation is all about instantaneous gratification. i have no patience. i want it all now.

and i can't... ya know... wait to be american.